Tuesday, June 12, 2007

The power of the mind

I forgot to mention that Sunday night while trying to go to sleep, I convinced myself I had some tick disease. I was doing a good enough job that I nearly had a full blown panic attack. Those aren't fun, btw.

The worst part about it was that I knew I was fine. But, I still was working myself into a frenzy.

Why did I believe I was infected? Well, I was having a little bit of a hard time breathing. Nothing worth freaking out over.

Between allergies, working over at Trish's, being overweight and smoking all day long, I'd messed with my lungs a smidge. So, while I'm trying to go to sleep, I'd convinced myself that I was having a much harder time breathing than I really was. And, of course, it was the onset of a disease the tick bite had given me.

Its amazing how hard it is to make yourself not have a panic attack.

I kept thinking, "Logically, I know that even if I were infected with some disease, which I'm 99.9% certain I'm not, it would take more than 24 hours to know it."

I finally turned something on the TV that caught my attention just enough to make me avoid concentrating on my breathing (therefore continuing to convince myself that I wasn't breathing correctly) and finally fell asleep.


Bluepaintred said...


I have panic attacks almost nightly when I go to bed!

I start to think about how much I smoked that day, and the history of cancer in my family and how tomorrow, absolutely I WILL quit tomorrow.

But by morning I never remember till I am butting out my first smoke of the day...by then, I might as well wait and start fresh the next day, eh?

Sheila said...

Yeah, totally said I had to quit smoking like 234082398 times that day... I'm still smoking.

Trisha said...

No one likes a quitter!! LOL. Love panic attacks. Trust me they intensify with pregnancy. Like x's 1,000,000!!